I’m not sure exactly the day that happened, maybe it was in January sometime, but I woke up one day and felt different. Felt as though all of the life I had lived was worth every pain and trial. I realized that only by giving my whole heart to God will my life ever get on the right track.
Maybe deciding that I can’t put myself and my life in another humans hands? Understanding that without the relationship I’m building with my God, my life will continue to be out of whack. I think I’ve spent too much time trying to make everyone else happy and putting my own happiness on the back burner. Thinking if I was with someone that my loneliness would go away. But, in actuality the ones I gave my heart too made me feel even more lonely.
My relationship with God is on the right track. My life is so blessed. I have people in my life that make my days happier, make my life better. I’ve met a really nice MAN. He treats me like the queen God says I am. Not sure where things will go because it’s all new but I’m leaving it in His hands. I’m taking the old self out of it and letting God design it the way He sees. I’m Happy! I know, if for whatever reason, things don’t work with him, then it is because God wasn’t in it.
Thank you Father for always showing me your love and grace over my life. For giving me great family and friends that are there for me every day. For blessing me daily. For forgiving me daily. For knowing that I fail you everyday but that you love me regardless because you know none of us are perfect. For the past trials and pains I had to live through, to be able to stand strong with You now. I’m grateful for so much, including this amazing man you’ve placed in my life. I pray your hand over this relationship. Guide it for your glory! Bring our hearts closer to you. ❤